My first thought was, he lied in every word, | |
That hoary cripple, with malicious eye | |
Askance to watch the working of his lie | |
On mine, and mouth scarce able to afford | |
Suppression of the glee that pursed and scored | 5 |
Its edge, at one more victim gained thereby. | |
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What else should he be set for, with his staff? | |
What, save to waylay with his lies, ensnare | |
All travellers who might find him posted there, | |
And ask the road? I guessed what skull-like laugh | 10 |
Would break, what crutch 'gin write my epitaph | |
For pastime in the dusty thoroughfare, | |
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If at his counsel I should turn aside | |
Into that ominous tract which, all agree, | |
Hides the Dark Tower. Yet acquiescingly | 15 |
I did turn as he pointed: neither pride | |
Nor hope rekindling at the end descried, | |
So much as gladness that some end might be. | |
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For, what with my whole world-wide wandering, | |
What with my search drawn out thro' years, my hope | 20 |
Dwindled into a ghost not fit to cope | |
With that obstreperous joy success would bring, | |
I hardly tried now to rebuke the spring | |
My heart made, finding failure in its scope. | |
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As when a sick man very near to death | 25 |
Seems dead indeed, and feels begin and end | |
The tears and takes the farewell of each friend, | |
And hears one bid the other go, draw breath | |
Freelier outside ("since all is o'er," he saith, | |
"And the blow fallen no grieving can amend";) | 30 |
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While some discuss if near the other graves | |
Be room enough for this, and when a day | |
Suits best for carrying the corpse away, | |
With care about the banners, scarves and staves: | |
And still the man hears all, and only craves | 35 |
He may not shame such tender love and stay. | |
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Thus, I had so long suffered in this quest, | |
Heard failure prophesied so oft, been writ | |
So many times among "The Band"--to wit, | |
The knights who to the Dark Tower's search addressed | 40 |
Their steps--that just to fail as they, seemed best, | |
And all the doubt was now--should I be fit? | |
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So, quiet as despair, I turned from him, | |
That hateful cripple, out of his highway | |
Into the path he pointed. All the day | 45 |
Had been a dreary one at best, and dim | |
Was settling to its close, yet shot one grim | |
Red leer to see the plain catch its estray. | |
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For mark! no sooner was I fairly found | |
Pledged to the plain, after a pace or two, | 50 |
Than, pausing to throw backward a last view | |
O'er the safe road, 'twas gone; grey plain all round: | |
Nothing but plain to the horizon's bound. | |
I might go on; nought else remained to do. | |
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So, on I went. I think I never saw | 55 |
Such starved ignoble nature; nothing throve: | |
For flowers--as well expect a cedar grove! | |
But cockle, spurge, according to their law | |
Might propagate their kind, with none to awe, | |
You'd think; a burr had been a treasure-trove. | 60 |
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No! penury, inertness and grimace, | |
In some strange sort, were the land's portion. "See | |
Or shut your eyes," said Nature peevishly, | |
"It nothing skills: I cannot help my case: | |
'Tis the Last Judgment's fire must cure this place, | 65 |
Calcine its clods and set my prisoners free." | |
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If there pushed any ragged thistle-stalk | |
Above its mates, the head was chopped; the bents | |
Were jealous else. What made those holes and rents | |
In the dock's harsh swarth leaves, bruised as to baulk | 70 |
All hope of greenness? 'tis a brute must walk | |
Pashing their life out, with a brute's intents. | |
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As for the grass, it grew as scant as hair | |
In leprosy; thin dry blades pricked the mud | |
Which underneath looked kneaded up with blood. | 75 |
One stiff blind horse, his every bone a-stare, | |
Stood stupefied, however he came there: | |
Thrust out past service from the devil's stud! | |
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Alive? he might be dead for aught I know, | |
With that red gaunt and colloped neck a-strain, | 80 |
And shut eyes underneath the rusty mane; | |
Seldom went such grotesqueness with such woe; | |
I never saw a brute I hated so; | |
He must be wicked to deserve such pain. | |
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I shut my eyes and turned them on my heart. | 85 |
As a man calls for wine before he fights, | |
I asked one draught of earlier, happier sights, | |
Ere fitly I could hope to play my part. | |
Think first, fight afterwards--the soldier's art: | |
One taste of the old time sets all to rights. | 90 |
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Not it! I fancied Cuthbert's reddening face | |
Beneath its garniture of curly gold, | |
Dear fellow, till I almost felt him fold | |
An arm in mine to fix me to the place | |
That way he used. Alas, one night's disgrace! | 95 |
Out went my heart's new fire and left it cold. | |
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Giles then, the soul of honour--there he stands | |
Frank as ten years ago when knighted first. | |
What honest men should dare (he said) he durst. | |
Good--but the scene shifts--faugh! what hangman hands | 100 |
In to his breast a parchment? His own bands | |
Read it. Poor traitor, spit upon and curst! | |
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Better this present than a past like that; | |
Back therefore to my darkening path again! | |
No sound, no sight as far as eye could strain. | 105 |
Will the night send a howlet or a bat? | |
I asked: when something on the dismal flat | |
Came to arrest my thoughts and change their train. | |
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A sudden little river crossed my path | |
As unexpected as a serpent comes. | 110 |
No sluggish tide congenial to the glooms; | |
This, as it frothed by, might have been a bath | |
For the fiend's glowing hoof--to see the wrath | |
Of its black eddy bespate with flakes and spumes. | |
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So petty yet so spiteful! All along | 115 |
Low scrubby alders kneeled down over it; | |
Drenched willows flung them headlong in a fit | |
Of mute despair, a suicidal throng: | |
The river which had done them all the wrong, | |
Whate'er that was, rolled by, deterred no whit. | 120 |
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Which, while I forded,--good saints, how I feared | |
To set my foot upon a dead man's cheek, | |
Each step, or feel the spear I thrust to seek | |
For hollows, tangled in his hair or beard! | |
--It may have been a water-rat I speared, | 125 |
But, ugh! it sounded like a baby's shriek. | |
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Glad was I when I reached the other bank. | |
Now for a better country. Vain presage! | |
Who were the strugglers, what war did they wage, | |
Whose savage trample thus could pad the dank | 130 |
Soil to a plash? Toads in a poisoned tank, | |
Or wild cats in a red-hot iron cage-- | |
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The fight must so have seemed in that fell cirque. | |
What penned them there, with all the plain to choose? | |
No foot-print leading to that horrid mews, | 135 |
None out of it. Mad brewage set to work | |
Their brains, no doubt, like galley-slaves the Turk | |
Pits for his pastime, Christians against Jews. | |
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And more than that--a furlong on--why, there! | |
What bad use was that engine for, that wheel, | 140 |
Or brake, not wheel--that harrow fit to reel | |
Men's bodies out like silk? with all the air | |
Of Tophet's tool, on earth left unaware, | |
Or brought to sharpen its rusty teeth of steel. | |
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Then came a bit of stubbed ground, once a wood, | 145 |
Next a marsh, it would seem, and now mere earth | |
Desperate and done with; (so a fool finds mirth, | |
Makes a thing and then mars it, till his mood | |
Changes and off he goes!) within a rood-- | |
Bog, clay and rubble, sand and stark black dearth. | 150 |
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Now blotches rankling, coloured gay and grim, | |
Now patches where some leanness of the soil's | |
Broke into moss or substances like boils; | |
Then came some palsied oak, a cleft in him | |
Like a distorted mouth that splits its rim | 155 |
Gaping at death, and dies while it recoils. | |
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And just as far as ever from the end! | |
Nought in the distance but the evening, nought | |
To point my footstep further! At the thought, | |
A great black bird, Apollyon's bosom-friend, | 160 |
Sailed past, nor beat his wide wing dragon-penned | |
That brushed my cap--perchance the guide I sought. | |
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For, looking up, aware I somehow grew, | |
'Spite of the dusk, the plain had given place | |
All round to mountains--with such name to grace | 165 |
Mere ugly heights and heaps now stolen in view. | |
How thus they had surprised me,--solve it, you! | |
How to get from them was no clearer case. | |
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Yet half I seemed to recognise some trick | |
Of mischief happened to me, God knows when-- | 170 |
In a bad dream perhaps. Here ended, then, | |
Progress this way. When, in the very nick | |
Of giving up, one time more, came a click | |
As when a trap shuts--you're inside the den! | |
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Burningly it came on me all at once, | 175 |
This was the place! those two hills on the right, | |
Crouched like two bulls locked horn in horn in fight; | |
While to the left, a tall scalped mountain . . . Dunce, | |
Dotard, a-dozing at the very nonce, | |
After a life spent training for the sight! | 180 |
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What in the midst lay but the Tower itself? | |
The round squat turret, blind as the fool's heart | |
Built of brown stone, without a counterpart | |
In the whole world. The tempest's mocking elf | |
Points to the shipman thus the unseen shelf | 185 |
He strikes on, only when the timbers start. | |
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Not see? because of night perhaps?--why, day | |
Came back again for that! before it left, | |
The dying sunset kindled through a cleft: | |
The hills, like giants at a hunting, lay | 190 |
Chin upon hand, to see the game at bay,-- | |
"Now stab and end the creature--to the heft!" | |
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Not hear? when noise was everywhere! it tolled | |
Increasing like a bell. Names in my ears | |
Of all the lost adventurers my peers,-- | 195 |
How such a one was strong, and such was bold, | |
And such was fortunate, yet each of old | |
Lost, lost! one moment knelled the woe of years. | |
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There they stood, ranged along the hillsides, met | |
To view the last of me, a living frame | 200 |
For one more picture! in a sheet of flame | |
I saw them and I knew them all. And yet | |
Dauntless the slug-horn to my lips I set, | |
And blew. "Childe Roland to the Dark Tower came." | |